Miscarriage Blues

[Verse 1]
Never got to hold you close
Never heard your laugh, never watched you grow
But from the second I knew you were there
I dreamed of your face, your smile, your hair
I talked to you every night
Rubbed my belly, held on tight
Made promises I planned to keep
But life had other plans for me
And now I sit here with empty hands
Feeling like I'll never understand
How something so loved could slip away
Like a whisper that couldn't stay

[Chorus]
These are my miscarriage blues
Singing to a life I had to lose
They don't talk 'bout this kind of grief
Like I ain't a mother if it was brief
I blame my body, blame the air
Blame God sometimes, then say a prayer
I carry love that never bloomed
Now I carry pain that fills the room

[Verse 2]
They say, "You're young," they say, "Try again"
But they don't know where my heart's been
I bought clothes I never got to use
I had names I never got to choose
I felt the shift, I knew the day
When silence took your place
And now I walk with guilt and grace
Tryna find the words for your space
I loved you real, I loved you whole
You mattered deep, you had a soul
I still light candles, still say your name
Even if no one else feels the same
You were mine, you still are
Even from the furthest star

[Chorus]
These are my miscarriage blues
For the life I never got to choose
They treat it like it don't count
But I lost a world I built around
I smile outside, cry in the dark
Still talk to you from this broken heart
They may forget, but I refuse
You lived in me, you were my truth

[Outro]
Sleep tight, my baby
Mama's still there
Even if the world
Pretends you weren't real