Meandering Thoughts at the Train Station

[Verse]
I’m gettin' left behind by my own aspirations
Still hesitant to leave, waitin' for an affirmation
Sittin' at the train station, siftin' through my medication
Blinded by the morning sun, still searching for the inspiration
To move on, but I’m still waiting, who knows how long it’s been
Last time that you saw me was the last time I wore this grin
But my smile is growing thin, it’s slowly weakenin'
How long since you checked out? Spiders crawling on my skin, yeah
I’m past the beggin', past the pleadin', at this point, I want some closure
But the gate’s still open, how much longer must I hold composure?
The sun’s rays burn my skin as I wait for the next train
Hold my hand over my face to shiеld from further pain
The station’s completеly empty but me and my reflection
Sittin' on the other side, underneath the shade’s protection
Beckonin' me to step across the train tracks
Smilin' back at me like he’s already laid traps
As if I needed any to fall back into the cycle
Yet again at the precipice of the downward spiral

[Interlude]
Fuck!

[Outro: Simon Pegg (as Gary Pegg)]
I remember sittin' up there, blood on my knuckles
Beer down my shirt, sick on my shoes
Seeing the orange glow of a new dawn break and knowing in my heart
Life would never feel this good again
And you know what?
Haha... it never did!