Maybe Two, or Twenty

Sometimes
I kiss my scars
It's over with
Is this it?
Sometimes
I breathe in deep
Lungs close up
I wish you married me
Sometimes
I break down
Give up everything
But then I think
About you
You're so strong
You're so strong
It's been two years since we even talked
But I still call hoping you'll pick up
It kills me to know you took your life
No one even knows
You were my star and sky
Drift away
I could lie and try to say
That I'm the same
Don't watch me cry over your grave
I'll take a drink
Maybe two, or twenty
You're watching me
Kiss another on the face
I feel guilty
Though you aren't here
I don't dare to erase
I still pay for your phone
So I can hear you speak
Hear you
Drift away
I could lie and try to say
That I'm the same
Don't watch me cry over your grave
I'll take a drink
Maybe two, or twenty