Machine?

I woke up with metal in my skin
A brand new awful feeling
Electric heat running through my veins
I can't feel anything

The world around me
Fades into nothing
And I feel like I am floating
I desperately try grounding techniques
But I'm not here
Nothing's working

I know someday, I'll get better
But that doesn't stop the pressure
To enjoy things day by day
When bad thoughts always rule my brain

Am I machine?
Are my feelings programmed inside me
Are destinies binary?
Are we copies of copies of copies of copies?
What am I feeling?
Am I really feeling anything?
Remind myself that I am breathing

Neon existentialism
My body is a chasm