Intrusive Thoughts Always

It hurts
But it's comfort
When I grip life
So tight

I don't want it
The force of habit
Why can't it
Feel right?

I need to
Learn to let go of
These thoughts
That seem to control

I'm still feeding off up crumbs I dropped when I was thirteen years old
Then hiding in tiny holes
Like I have always been told

It's so hard
Learning to let go of
These thoughts
(Learning to let go)

I know someday, I'll get better
But that doesn't stop the pressure
To enjoy things day by day despite
Intrusive thoughts always

I don't know how much longer
I can fall asleep with the fear
That I'll wake up tomorrow
And one or all of my friends will no longer be here
I know this paper and this pen
Could never solve anything
But if songs could save lives, we'd be the saviors this town needs

I need to
Learn to let go of
These thoughts

I know someday, I'll get better
But that doesn't stop the pressure
To enjoy things day by day despite
Intrusive thoughts always