Love You/Lose You

So I'm gonna love you
Like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna hold you
Like I'm saying goodbye x2

I used to love ya like I thought I’d loose ya
Now I’ve been using bandages to try and cover bruises
Yeah I’ve been using alcohol you bet that I abuse it
But if you stood where I stood you would get why I do it

Uh
I’ve got a question I’ve been meanin to ask
Why you erasing me like I’m a board your done with using in class
Just tell me
What the fuck was going on
I asked so many times and What I got was I don’t know - nothings wrong

I was so sick of lies and playing games
Like other girls would hit me up and I would tell em go away
I had what I needed man my honey was the sweetest didn’t need another reason that was it - wasn’t repeating it
Yeah
Then it was over in a second to glance
And everything that we had
Was flipped and turned into bad
And now I’m looking way back
And thinking damn this is sad
I’d grab your hand and slip a ring on it but now I just can’t

So I'm gonna love you
Like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna hold you
Like I'm saying goodbye x2

I’d always hold you like we were
Saying goodbye
That’s why the day we let it go I couldn’t stop holding you tight
As tears poured out our eyes
Nightmares they were brought to life
I asked for one more kiss thinking that shit was gonna be alright

Wasn’t til a few days later that I missed your lips on mine
And not because it turns me on but cause that’s bonds one of a kind
Every time we used to touch I felt our energy collide
Nowadays I kiss someone and sparks don’t fly so I resign

I wish I could’ve done more
Wish I could've solved it
I’d give the world to make it better
Smother all the hardships

But now damage is done
And once it ends ya can’t restart it
You make the others look like nothing this has been the hardest

The part that really does me in
Is soon we’ll both have different friends
Our time will always go to them
And then we’ll put a name to it
We will both be sinking in
Starting new relationships
And all we had gets left behind
And that’s one thought that makes me sick

So I'm gonna love you
Like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna hold you
Like I'm saying goodbye x2