Lost

[Verse 1: Horus]
Where do I go?
What do I say?
How do I convince myself
That I will ever find my place?
Time and time again
I've fallen flat upon my fucking face
And it seems that I can't find my fucking niche in anything
I want to end my fucking life
I say it time and time again
But if I were to just die
How would they speak about my name?
How could I stay alive?
Running around lost inside this place?
Oh I am lost inside this place
Oh I have lost the fucking race
And when you look at me you see it
Painted on my fucking face
These are not words to get you moved
I swear these words are not for you
I wrote this down so I could fucking scream
Alone inside my room
Nobody did this shit to me
No family or a friend
I want to end my fucking life
I say it time and time again (Time and time again...)

[Verse 2: Horus]
I do not understand
The ramifications
Of your smile
When you pierce into my soul
With that gaze it drives me wild
Maybe I'm lost
Maybe I'm found
Maybe I just enjoy adventure
But at what cost?
I'm feeling down
So lemme write to you this letter
Or it's a poem?
Or it's a sound?
Where is my home?
Not in this town
Not in this skin
Soaking in sin
And if I drown
If I give in
Will you be by my side?
Or will that be it?
Let me explain
Let go of pain
Where is my home?
Am I not sane?
Not in this house
Not in this brain