Alone

Thinking and thinking
My mind is running in laps
Now I'm drinking and drinking
I am a schizo perhaps

I feel so much pain
I'm ready for a collapse
My teeth gimme migraine
Spine can't hold me in tact

I'm laying flat on my back
Tryna save myself
The only way I been living
Is to escape myself

I am in very poor health
Of the mind and my soul
Human touch on my skin
Makes my blood run cold

This shit is getting old
Why don't we turn on Nintendo
Pretend I'm kenshiro
While im blowing the endo

Tell me what you think
Reality really is
If it really exists, tell me how
To live in this shit

The only time I feel alive
In a virtual life
Show me the power
Everybody thinks I'm holding inside

Better yet show me sane
Show me how to control
The fucking game
Show me how I'm posed to be the hero

I am alone
This is the end
I am alone
Inside my head
I am alone
Let's pretend
I am alone
That we are dead

I need help
I just don't know if it's yours or mine
I see hell
Every fucking time I close my eyes

I can't make sense
Of a single thought in my mind
Oh how I hate this
If it's life and death just leave me behind

Common misconcept
Just because I put up this music
On the Internet
You fucking think it's for your amusement

This my first step
First bit of effort in proof
I can feel in control
When I'm creating a groove

And now it's time to move
The odds stack up against me
Because of who my brother is
They're gunna resent me

Ima cover my face
Ima put up my guard
Ion know how to stay safe
Should I build a wall

Open myself up
Or close myself off
What's the difference?
When nobody ever here for the haul

I keep on writing cuz I'm scared
Of my future my demons
But as long as I can breathe
I know I can defeat it

I am alone
This is the end
I am alone
Inside my head
I am alone
Let's pretend
I am alone
That we are dead