Loser

Sometimes, on nights like these I like sit and watch the surf
Waiting for the sky to fall into the sea
We are born as grains of sand, and when we die, dust to dust
But it’s alright, just don’t be scared, it’s where we all end up eventually

Am I a loser now?
Not a dollar to my name
Nor a place to call my own
Just a lifetime on the run
Chasing ghosts and the setting sun
It’s all gone up in smoke
Torn away with each mistake
I’ve been a stranger to myself
Within the walls of my personal hell

I can’t keep living like this
For thе all the rest of my life
Wе tailspin faster into the sea
Can’t knock me for not trying

Wish I could hide away
Underneath the shady palms
On the breath of an ocean breeze
Do you remember we were young?
We were just kids in the summer heat
Breaking into swimming pools
Getting lost in the city streets
It all feels so far away, love
That I still wonder—
Was that really me?

I can’t do anything right
No matter how hard I try
Soon the flowers bloom
I shrivel and die

So many years, so many wasted chances
If only I could tell myself to believe otherwise
Maybe then, things would be different
Back on the night when we drove off the edge
I knew I’d never forget the look in your bloodshot eyes
But It all just seems so far away now
Like a false memory
I’m not the boy I thought I was
Nor the man I pretended to me
But I’d still hesitate to call it a change of heart
I still find myself coming back here time after time
Somehow hoping for a second chance
But that’s just a load of bullshit
I’m a dog till’ the day I die