LOOKING AT AN ANGEL THROUGH THE WALL

And I call
But I don't care
I don't see you anywhere

And I call but I don't care
I don't care

We've been here before
I can see the lines in the rug
And pull up the cracked mud
That's stood with us
I was never what you asked for
The sooner you admit it
The sooner we'll find that our lives
Are better without each other in them
And I know it's a terrible thing to realize
But you've never understood me and my life
You never let me discover it's true depth
I think I'm just realizing that holding on
Will never bring joy
That things can never go back
That we can never be the same people
No matter how hard you look into my eyes
And try to find that young, lost boy
You know exactly where he lies
He's stiff, cold, and he's terrified
He'll remain on your path that you set to destroy
He's outnumbered and he's buried alive
If I didn't know any better
I'd say "You enjoyed watching him die"

Die
Watching him die

I can't stop the clock
A deafening countdown
A metronome pacing
The steps on my final walk
This is it
The time has come
Control is lost
Or maybe it was never won
I am the sum
Of a thousand dead, lonely, or numb
But I breathe to the sound of my only drum
That beats through the day
It's all my dreams have become
It's warped my perceptions
Left me dazed, wounded, and dumb
I am everything but what I dreamed I'd one day become

Can you hear the noise in here?
It's like I'm made up of fear
Can you hear the noise in here?
Do you hear?