I’VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT DYING TOO MUCH

Will this road ever end
Can I survive or keep a friend
Control was nothing that I found
One foot deeper I sink in the ground

I wear my fear like a badge on my chest
Anxiety rage inside my head
Is this the way that I have to stay
Is there a choice to anything

Is time a perpetual line
Is it a waste to look for what I know I can’t find
I’ve overstayed my welcome
And I fear it’s too late
My fear is my everything
So peculiarly ornate

I found a few but lost the rest
My friends I loved, they’re now a guest
Of my home that’s built and repressed
I’m feeling everything
Slipping to obsessed

And I hoped to leave this with my adolescent mind
But it’s something that’s developed and progressed with time
I’m positive, yet a downer
When I can sleep, never sleeping sounder
I’m confounded, unbound by the mass and his clown
Perpetually staying down
Unabated yet I can’t stand my ground
I feel like I can feel meaning emanating from all around
Let this meaning reign, let it resound
For it’s only a minute until that feeling can’t be found

I’m slipping