Long Overdue

[Verse]
Long overdue with the pill residue, in my jeans
Life ain't what everybody says no happy things
I stand up for an ovation but to my discern I get no applause
I really came back to finish what I started, I was outsmarted
I remember back in grade school the teacher asked was I retarded
I said no bitch are you that’s what I retorted
It’s funny when faced with anger quick sly remarks is where I resorted
I’m still like that please don’t anger me my words arе horrid
But enough about me let’s focus on what’s morе important
I came back two years late, with a big plate
All my demons followed, along with the pills I swallowed
I get lost in my mind, my thoughts never kind
What’s the opposite of benign
Let’s just say they hostile
Not rolling with the right crowd
Look at me talking about myself
I know I just can’t help it
I mix the good with bad along with the hearts I melted

[Verse]
They lost faith in me like how Christ came to be
We look to Christianity to be the savior of humanity
But in the end, were steady losing our sanity
You can smite me, not like me, or try to fight me
But I got it on my own, there's not many like me
I stop focusing on what could have been or what might be
I charge headfirst into battle what about repercussions
I'm so clear-headed right now I see my bad decisions
Call it a moment of clarity or God's doing
Listening to beats right now feel like my hearts moving
Keep checking messages tryna clean up recklessness
I made some enemies tonight don't got the will to fight
I'm not used to fright, I might die tonight
Internally not externally let's get it right
Cus I'm a fuck up, a screw-up
Whatever you want me to be
At the end of the day, the truth will set me free
I'm fading away the only thing left is "MUNZ"
I'm sposed to be CTB that's what I claim to be
Cutthroat Boys is the way of life filled with pain and strife
I used to take pills I don't no more I'm done with lies
I'm always changing it feels like nine times I've already died
It feels like no matter what I do I make people cry
I say yes I say no, peoples true colors show
I fell in love however many times I got widows
Drink my sorrow away hope this pain don't show
I'm done I've had my fun I just rap this pain away till the day is done