Lonely

[Intro]
Yeah, uh huh, lord, yeah, alright, yeah, huh

[Verse 1]
I am fatigued
I give it my all with the music
People do not recognize
The passion I have for the craft
The effort I'm givin' with every line
That I write a ridiculous
Life has affected my content
All of the sins that would sit on my conscience
Insecurities that I am possessin'
Why is my death been a constant obsession
I am reflectin'
Thinkin' about the life that I chose
And the path of the young nigga moving on
And I been down and out
'Cause I was looking for the answer
But never really had no questions
Tell me that I'm accepted
I'm gettin' sick and tired of rejection
I said I can't deal with the nonsense
The pain been constant
I wish I wasn't this depressed
So I can deal with the stress
I feel at all times
I'm debatin' what the fuck I'mma do with the cadence
I hope it isn't weak
Nigga, I can take it deep to the depths of your soul
With the list of my goals
That I could never attain
And you would take it in vain
I tried to explain
And givin' you my pain
Take a listen to the record and tell me I'm insane
With the way that I was raised
I swear that I've been trained
Prepared to be alone
I pray that I can atone
I've been lookin' for the meaning of life
With the voice in my head
Tryna get it all right
I can never get a light
When I felt that I needed it
Proceeded with my genius
Conceivin' this
The meanest shit
Your will will bend the pain to end
The second that a nigga picked up the pen
I guess it all depends upon the mood that I'm in
And the mind-state in which that I write this
Puttin' my time in
I redefine what it means
Commended for my dedication
You never related
Relayin' my pain in the passages
Written on pages
This scripture for sinners
This sentence can save 'em
I give you the truth
And it's never debated
Degraded by hatred
And giving your ignorant comment deceitful
Accomplice the reason my life is abolished

[Chorus]
Lawd!
I’m writin' a story that you couldn’t fathom, yeah
I'm givin' a vision that you can't imagine , yeah
Do I wanna live is the question that I have been asking
All of the pain that I put in my lyrics
I wonder can anybody really grasp it, lawd
Yeah, you're wondering what is my thesis
Yeah, you're wondering what is my thesis
Yeah, you're wondering what is my thesis
Why am I lonely when people are phony
I felt like I needed someone to believe in, lawd!

[Verse 2]
Tell me that you want the real shit
Then take a second to listen and you'll feel this
As I reminisce on my self-esteem
That would evaporate in my adolescence
Turned introspective
Felt so dejected
I should use a noose as my newest necklace
I'mma set the scene from my wildest dreams
And I was headed for the valley of the shadow of death
I wanna be the motherfucker you define as the best
With a rhyme to attest
Releasin' all stress
I confess that I speak a life from my view
With deceive and disciple
The blood and the pew
We stained the white flag that you use for truces
All bets are off
There's no more illusions
And anyone wanna get a division is confusin'
I wanna a nigga rid and I wanted to infuse him
My flows amusin'
Niggas are so clueless
Blind to all facts
And don't know what truth is
I put it on wax
And backtrack maneuvers
Atrocities that you associated
All my fucking pain has been irregulated
In my isolation I was hesitatin'
I am terrified that I will never make it
Life is so evasive
I could make a statement
I'mma signify what this shit really mean
And that's another part that you will never get
Unless I paint a picture
You could visualize it
That was so surprising
Nigga I'm comprisin'
Lots of iller shit for you to realize
That I am so lonely
I am so lonely
I am so lonely
Lawd!

[Chorus]
Lawd!
I’m writin' a story that you couldn’t fathom, yeah
I'm givin' a vision that you can't imagine , yeah
Do I wanna live is the question that I have been asking
All of the pain that I put in my lyrics
I wonder can anybody really grasp it, lawd
Yeah, you're wondering what is my thesis
Yeah, you're wondering what is my thesis
Yeah, you're wondering what is my thesis
Why am I lonely when people are phony
I felt like I needed someone to believe in, lawd!