Life Crystal

[Verse 1]
Ay, ay, yeah
I'm a ghost
They ain't seeing nothing when they look into me
I remember being broken I was only 16
I remember being broken now I'm living my dream, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, (hey) shut your fucking mouth I hear you talking to me
Can't you see I'm trying my best not to think?
Now I'm running up a check but that means nothing to me
Yeah, yeah
I been out I'm trying to breathe slow but it won't calm down
No one I can call now used to always get along now we always fall out
Yeah, yeah

[Chorus]
I guess I'm not as tough as I wanted to be
I guess I'm not nearly as kept up as I think
I don't mean it but I guess I'm just not good company, yeah, yeah
Woah, woah, wow

[Verse 2]
I'm on stilts, high, catch me on the cliff side coming down
Wow, smoking big loud
While I sit quiet, I might be a bit shy but I'm proud
When the frost melts
See me when the chill's gone
Call me when the grit starts clearing out
How, how, how, do I get on the good side, I just try my best to figure it out
I'm fuckin up, everytime I open up my mouth there's something wrong
Like honestly why should I even talk?
Everything is always all my fault
I just scare off everybody that I ever love, I fuck it up
Yeah, and I spent my time in the background
Yeah, but I still don't get how to back down
It's a wrap, you can drop the act now
Yeah, they did me bad but they all coming back now

[Verse 3]
Got my HP up
I guess we got even
I just pulled my sheets up
I can see no demons
And you can leave, just tell me what's your reason
Been good, but that's just recent
Mood moves with the seasons
Breathe in the air, let all the rest leave
I keep my hair like my room messy, hey
Keep on trying to be the best me, but it seem like life just lately love to test me

[Outro]
Yeah, yeah
I guess I'm not as tough as I wanted to be
I guess I'm not nearly as kept up as I think
I don't mean it but I guess I'm just not good company, yeah, yeah