Leaving the Party

[Hook]
I just left the party in my ripped jeans
Paint  you on my brain like you the Sistine
Feelings  never left me since I was sixteen
Had half a Bacardi and some more mixed drinks
Why I still think about you sideways?
All  that ever did was give my migraines
I've  been fucked up since last Friday
Calling up an Uber, told the driver hit the highway

[Verse 1]
Drop  me in an alley, I would like to smoke a cigarette
All the chaos did was get me spinning like a piourette
Just me and my shadow, like it best when I'm a silhouette
Cause bitches only want me when I act like I ain't in to them
You  ain't ever listening, but I don't blame you either
I'm never on the surface, I am always much deeper
Smoke is still burning, offer you a 2-liter
If I drown you in the thoughts of my lonely 2-seater
That would be a mistake
Too much intake
For the outlet
So I don't plug it in
Sedatives melting while I'm mouthing
Some words you never heard because they ain't coming out yet
Change my mind before I speak cause shit be going south quick
Maybe I'm too emotional
I'm not the type of guy to ever want to be controlling you
Yet I got the kind of heart that ain't ever getting over you
Lost in my anxiety, what's the use, what I'm supposed to do?
Feel like all my words are choking you

[Hook]
I just left the party in my ripped jeans
Paint you on my brain like you the Sistine
Feelings never left me since I was sixteen
Had half a Bacardi and some more mixed drinks
Why I still think about you sideways?
All that ever did was give my migraines
I've been fucked up since last Friday
Calling up an Uber, told the driver hit the highway

[Verse 2]
You better be speeding when you leaving
I got nothing to believe in
Drop me off a mile away, I'll take a walk with all my demons
It's misleading when you healing, but it's really getting worse
I was fine, but now I'm tweaking, I need something for my nerves
I don't get why you had turned to me to a villain all for nothing
Our ordeals were kept in private, but you treat 'em like they're public
Talk is cheap, but now I'm broken, you running around with hundreds
I thought I was being selfless, now I got no sense of self left
Get it straight I know I'm better off without you
But I got so much hate that's still within me and without too
Cause I gave you my all, all you did was fucking take it
I got nothing in return you grabbed my life and fucking drained it
Left the sign on out my body so everyone knew it's vacant
I thought I was being patient, ended up ashamed it's
Such a fucking shame you never let me finish painting
I'm an artist of the heart my masterpiece will be amazing
But nevermind it
I think I'm smoking filter now
Lost in my thought for the walk
I feel so different now
It's like I'm seeking to sulk
It feels like winter out
I still would not talk if you were reaching out
I reach the end of my block and ash my cancer stick
Look at the door of my building like it was menacing
Smell like tobacco and sadness when I be entering

[Hook]
I just left the party in my ripped jeans
Paint you on my brain like you the Sistine
Feelings never left me since I was sixteen
Had half a Bacardi and some more mixed drinks
Why I still think about you sideways?
All that ever did was give my migraines
I've been fucked up since last Friday
Calling up an Uber, told the driver hit the highway
I'm gone