Leave

Every winter it’s the same fear
I’m gonna be alone on Christmas this year
And though I think your heart is sincere
I know I don’t really belong here
I sense their glares
And I feel unprepared
I’m afraid to say anything
‘Cause I’m not sure they’ll know what I mean
I wanna be here with your family
Instead I’m packin’ up my things to leave

My heart is running on the cold air
They say that I spend too much time with you but I don’t listen
Feel like I’m in high school again
It’s reflected in concepts they share
I might be there, but I don’t see where

I’m far away mentally
‘Cause I don’t think they want to hear from me
I want to be part of my family
Instead I’m sitting here silently
I’m afraid to say anything
‘Cause I don’t know if they care what I think
I wanna be loved by somebody
Instead I push them all away from me
Instead I push them all away from me
Instead I push them all away from me
Instead I push them all away from me