Beauty

Why not?
What am I waiting for
What do I think is gonna happen
That hasn’t happened before
I’m lost, what am I doing here
I already know what’s gonna happen so I waste another year
I don't know
Is there hidden beauty in this life? I don’t know
Do I really want to live to see my friends die? I don’t think so
Wish I could I be a believer, but I know it’s gonna stay like this forever ‘til I go

I worked all week
Spend my spare time starin’ at the screens
I couldn’t sleep
Couldn’t remember any of my dreams
I couldn’t bear to see the things inside of me
I wanna be who I was at agе 13 again

Now all the girls I used to know
Can’t come unlеss they're being choked
If our future’s fallin' soon
Is growing up just gettin’ old
‘Cause now all the boys that I knew won’t look at me unless I’m nude
They said it’s catchin’ up to you
Yeah time is catchin’ up to you

Now all the girls I used to know
Can’t breathe unless they're being choked
So if our future’s fallin’ soon
Can someone tell me where to go
Now all the boys I used to see all think there’s something wrong with me
I wanna be who I used to be
I want life with intimacy
But it was taken from me
But it was taken from me
But it was taken from me
Yeah it was taken from me

Is there hidden beauty in this life?
Do I want to live to see my friends die?
Why can’t I be a believer?
Is it gonna be like this forever?
Why not?
What am I waiting for?
What I do I think is gonna happen that hasn’t before?
I don’t know