Just some stuff on my mind at the moment

How are you
Thats good to hear
Im not so good
Would you like to hear
Okay, well

Im thinking why would i go outside when i got problems inside
Why would i show my life, when i hate all of my sides
Subconscious cries for help, while im tryna survive
All this self deprication is unjustified

I can't really find the right words for how im feeling
But i dont blame others for not understanding
I freeze up, not monetarily
Seized up, cuz im so fucking scared of me

Everyday is the same i wake up and brush my teeth
Slide on my dirty sneakers on my cold feet
Mental withering away for a while, im feelin weak
And all i ever wanna do anymore, is just go to sleep

I been smokin like a fuckin recluse
Feel like drinking is all that i do
Tha outside is some shit i refuse
My homies something i can not lose

This is just some stuff on my mind since you asked
I hope you don't think so less of me, i hope you don't think so less of me