Josh’s Song

[Verse 1: Ruthless Rob]
Why does everybody that I love always gotta die first?
Cuddy, now Josh Gotti, tell me God, why?
He was only twenty-three, he was practically my brother
The life that we lived, guess he didn't wanna suffer
Anymore, yo I'm still in shock, I can't believe my cousin
We thought that he was happy, deep down inside he wasn't
If I knew it'd be the last time we talked on the phone
I'd had kept the conversation longer, now I'm all alone
Getting drunk 'cause I can't stand the pain when I'm sober
If I knew that you was hurtin', man, I would have been the shoulder
Now it's over and I still can't believe that you're gone
Even though I saw you laying there, it's hard to hold on
All the times that we had slowly turned to faded memories
I hope you understand how much you truly meant to me
And mentally I'm scarred, it's so hard trying to hang on
RIP Gotti, rest easy, this is Josh's Song

[Chorus: Ruthless Rob & Ruthless Rob & Jenna]
Sick of crying, tired of trying
Yes, I'm smiling but inside I'm dying
Sick of crying, tired of trying
Yes, I'm smiling but inside I'm dying

[Verse 2: 2-Face & Ruthless Rob]
Yo, Rob! What's up? I heard we lost another
Gotti wasn't a cousin but more like a brother
'Cause you see your family is mine and my family is yours
Going through some trouble, yeah, it's always open doors
I know we're livin' in days of truly hard times
And this loneliness has got us goin' out our minds
Losing friends and family can be at the drop of a dime
We thought that you were fine until you walked the flatline
But when it comes to death all we got left are memories
So smoke a blunt, reminisce, get the Patron and drink with me
I pour you out some Hennessy when I'm in the city
The city of struggle, the city that shows no pity
You may be gone now but you'll never be alone
Heaven is your home, God has blessed your soul
If it wasn't for you, Isolated Beingz wouldn't exist
So this is Josh's Song, rest in peace Gotti, never forget

[Chorus: Ruthless Rob & Ruthless Rob & Jenna]
Sick of crying, tired of trying
Yes, I'm smiling but inside I'm dying
Sick of crying, tired of trying
Yes, I'm smiling but inside I'm dying

[Verse 3: Ruthless Rob]
If we'd had stayed on the phone that night
You might be here and be all right
How was I to know the pain that you felt deep down inside?
I miss you every day, I got to say you was my right-hand man
I'm tearing up as I spit this on the mic stand
Can I get a sign that you're fine and you made it through?
You haunt me in my dreams, when I close my eyes, I still see you
And even though you're gone, there will never be another
Watch over little Michael, the rest of your family, and your mother

[Bridge: Jenna]
Sick of crying, tired of trying
Yes, I'm smiling but inside I'm dying

[Chorus: Ruthless Rob & Ruthless Rob & Jenna]
Sick of crying, tired of trying
Yes, I'm smiling but inside I'm dying
Sick of crying, tired of trying
Yes, I'm smiling but inside I'm dying