Japanese Ghost

My mom just went to work, it's almost 6AM
It's been 45 minutes since I drowned who I am
Swallowed all my k-pins - they told me I won't die
But it doesn't hurt to try

What I'd like to become is a Japanese ghost
Something with a host
Something with a purpose
Everything around me seems to only drift the surface
And I'm sinking to the very merry bottom of the ocean...

(Oh my God...
Just a young hikikomori.)