It Comes In Waves

[Hook]
It comes in waves, there’s nothing to say
Everything has been washed away
It comes in waves, it comes in waves
It comes in waves
It’s not a matter of being brave
Or trying hard to engage
It comes in waves, it comes in waves

[Verse 1]
I never found a way to speak about the trauma
Without swerving off a cliff of melodrama
It’s the key detail and it can’t be ignored
I’m the youngest of two but was the youngest of four
Idolized my older brothers but they took their own lives
And I still haven’t recovered even though I’ve tried
My insides twisted up the hurt is insane
The irony is that they did it to ease pain
And now I’ve lived more years without them than I lived with them
Suicide is not a crime but everyone’s a victim
Imagine what my mom went through back in the eighties
Raising four boys working, divorced lady
And, “Maybe maybe maybe”, “What if? What if?”
Pointless empty questions that are hard to live with
Tried to shift my perspective but the bullshit stayed
And now mom’s gone too, grief comes in waves

[Hook]
It comes in waves, there’s nothing to say
Everything has been washed away
It comes in waves, it comes in waves
It comes in waves
It’s not a matter of being brave
Or trying hard to engage
It comes in waves, it comes in waves

[Bridge]
There's nothing to say
There's nothing to say
There's nothing to say
There's nothing to say

[Verse 2]
Everything is mixed up in my head
Loss brings up the losses the dead beget the dead
Friends have lost a parent but it didn’t smash their heart
Friends have lost a dog and they fucking fell apart
Me? I lost my mom, atomic bomb
My own private Hiroshima, wrong gone wrong
Brought up every loss I ever suffered in the past
“Thought I knew”, think fast

[Outro]
In a million years those waves won’t wash away
And even in a million years those waves won’t wash away
And even in a million years those waves won’t wash away
And even in a million years those waves won’t wash away
And even in a million years those waves won’t wash away
It comes in waves
And even in a million years those waves won’t wash away
It comes in waves
And even in a million years those waves won’t wash away
It comes in waves
And even in a million years those waves won’t wash away
It comes in waves
There's nothing to say
There's nothing to say
There's nothing to say
There's nothing to say