Is This Danger

Is this danger?
Is this true love?
Is this something I can hope to know?

Is this laughter?
Is this anger?
Is this a reason to lose control?

I have stood on the mountain apex
Waiting for the truth
I have walked a million miles
Just to see what I already knew

Is this a basket?
Is this my own life?
Is this container to never use?

Is this sadness?
Is this past us?
Is this a moment we did not choose?

I have walked through the darkest forest
Waiting for inspiration
I have prayed a million hail marys
Just to wait at that godless station

I've been holding back on loving you
I've been holding back, I've been holding back
I’ve been holding back on holding you
I've been holding back, I've been holding back

Is this wisdom?
Is this garbage?
Is this something I can throw away?

Is this caution?
Is this springtime?
Is this a season that will not stay?

I've been holding back on loving you
I've been holding back, I've been holding back
I’ve been holding back on holding you
I've been holding back, I've been holding back

Is this over?
Is this my wish?
Is this a speech that I have never heard?

Is this a lion?
Is this a lamb?
Is this a nature where we can’t be sure?