Invitation To A Funeral

[Verse]
Say my songs are too depressing
How the fuck you think that I feel?
Drinking won't relieve the pressure
Maybe suicide will
Rolling up a fiver just to hit another line
I know I need to cut it out
But I'm ignoring all the signs, still
I don't mean to scare you
But it's only fair to warn you
Lately I've been hearing voices
Like it's something paranormal
Sorry if my introduction
Wasn't very formal
But I'm too fucked up to care
I won't remember in the morning

If I forgot, it must not have been that important
Tried to lock away my demons
But they knocking on my door
And I've been boarding up the windows
Still I look over my shoulder
I know it's gonna happen
See it now as I get older
It was easier to write about
The clubs that I was playing
Or the bitches I was fucking
Or the drugs that I was taking
Or the crew I used to run with
Or the money I was making
Now the love I set aside
Became the one thing I was chasing

Couldn't find it waiting
I was stuck up in the basement
Every night and day
Until they put me underneath the pavement
At my funeral
I wanted her to come and give a statement
But she didn't show
I guess she wasn't up for the occasion

I know she got the invitation
Connect the dots like it's a constellation
Sentimental things I never got to say
Are more important than the shit I got away with

But know my ghost is gonna haunt you
If it's any consolation