Inner Reveal

Yeah, Yeah
And I will try to explain how i feel
So this is just like an Inner Reveal
I will say some things that i concealed
And every morning i wake up "I'm feeling so damn ill."
The past 3 months, my life only went downhill
I'm being frustrated over everything
I got no time to chill
I'm depressed and i'm still going to school
Even in this time when it isn't cool
But even in school, there is so much cruel
Little kids that are behaving so fucking brutal
But most of the time, i stay home
I'm making notes to spit it in my microphone
Real friends don't exist, so i'm alone
I have to deal with this depression all on my own
And i stay in my zone
'Cause i already got zoned
But now my heart is feelin' cold
And my mind tripping
I want my 3th attempt, sorry i admit it
I have to think about it every single minute
And everything i used to do, isn't interesting anymore
I would like to jump down from the 8th floor
People say i got a lot more to explore
But not killing myself, is something i didn't swore
Day by day i only wanna do it more and more
I'm typing messages, but the only thing they do is ignore
Sometimes i even wonder if i'll be here tomorrow
I'm getting followed by the deathly hallow
I got caught up in the shadow
And feeling so damn low
I wish i could show how i feel inside
So they can see i have issues with suicide
I'm going for a walk at night
So people won't see that i'm sitting here, crying
I'm not perfect but i'm a real one
And yes, i make mistakes too
One of them was chillin' with a wrong group
Drinking, fighting and smoking with a few dudes
But atleast i never had an attitude
Another reason is when i broke up with my ex
After 1 month, i had nothing more than regrets
Sending love texts to your ex and friends
While i was sitting next to you on the bench, holding your hand
You hurted me everyday, you don't understand
It all just felt like i was getting stabbed
That was one of the many things that had alot of impact
With my depression that i have
I feel like total trash
Because i only crash
I got drilled in the ground by some people from my class
That smoke weed and a few pieces of hash
But, one day i'll get my revenge
One day, i'll get my fucking revenge
Yo