​inflicted

Thinking of some ways to numb the pain
How do I put an end to the pain?
So much weight being put on my name
Now I cannot think straight
So I'm inflicted
I cannot think straight
And I want to end all of the pain
Should I take some pills
Should I get a glass of wine
And drink until I pass?
I'm so unhappy, I am so ill
Thank you for asking
But how are you?
Are you mentally well?
Because I'm really not
I don't know what is where
Or what's my name
And I can't help but feel sadness and shame
Every single damn day
Hiding from public space
I can't be seen like this anymore
Anymore
So I'm inflicted
Just to numb the pain
I don't wanna live like this anymore
And I cannot think straight
So much fucking weight
Being put on my fucking name
So I'm inflicted
I cannot think straight
And I want to end all of the pain
Should I take some pills
Should I get a glass of wine
And drink until I pass?
So I'm inflicted
So I'm inflicted
I will have no shame
When I end the pain
How will I end all the pain?
I'm waiting every damn day
I'm beyond scared fucking straight
So patch me up, shut me up
Make me okay
Now please don't say my name ever again