In Between Heartbeats

Just a feeling that something is off tonight
I can't seem to figure it out
Say everything's fine, then shut your eyes as hard as you can

I try so hard to open up to you
Why are words so hard to pronounce tonight?
It seems harder by every time
Say everything's fine, then shut your eyes as hard as you can

I don't think I will understand at all
Just a feeling that something will break
And all that is here are these four walls closing on us

When will this aching end?
Will it get easier?
I cannot go on alone
I cannot go on alone
You know that I'm not that strong
You know that I'm not that strong

It feels just like all that we have slips right out of our hands
So sick and tired of my head
Everything keeps on spinning
Words falling out of your mouth
Letter by letter, forms words
I can't spell them out nor can I understand them

Alone, I cannot go on alone
You know that I'm not that strong
You know that I'm not that strong

You left me with your, with your last words ringing in my head
Echoing in my head, please say it's not so
I just can't stand hearing you say it
Nothing feels real anymore and my hands can't stop shaking
I wish I could make you see just how much you matter to me
And I wish that was enough to help you see that there's still hope

You still have so much to live for
You still have so much to live for
You still have so much to live for

We still have time, we still have time
When the rest falls apart, I will stay there with you
When the rest goes away, I will be there with you
I tell myself, I tell myself