Impromptu

[Verse 1]
Suicide's a cool word
It gets everyone’s attention
Not to mention
My life isn't precious
Hate waking up
And I hate the pretending
Mom thinks that I'm lazy, I’m just scared of stress
Whoa hold on wait, I'm not depressed, I guess

[Verse 2]
Surrounded by friends who think that they know me
My mother's a pastor but I don't feel holy
And saying all these thoughts, man it really shows me that
I've got no hope and if only if only
I could be like the rest
Good grades, normal, yes
Straight A's, nothing less

[Verse 3]
Fake smiles, I digress
The more couples I see man the lonelier I feel (and)
The more my grades drop the more life seems real
The more life seems real
Life treats you hard; it don't care how you feel

[Verse 4]
Esteem has turned rotten, forgotten gone brown
Never got to build it cuz life tore it down
Could blame it on my father, he not around
I truly don't care, not even an ounce
Who am I supposed to be?
Is destiny a friend to me?
If I keep waking up then I’ll see