If You Loved Me

I saw you vomit when you left but I let you take the car
I figured if you were that fucked up you wouldn't be getting far
You said you had to go out and run an errand for your dad
He doesn't want to buy his coke in person: he'll send his daughter instead

So I'll lay here underneath your blacklight
And I'll be thankful for your stereo
Sometimes I can't wait to see you go
If you loved me by now you'd be at home

Did you find another man? I see you've got plenty of smokes
At first I thought that you were kidding because you're terrible with jokes
But you've been gone for hours and you left your methadone
But I know you'll be back real soon: you wouldn't miss another dose

So I'll lay here underneath your blacklight
And I'll be thankful for your stereo
Sometimes I can't wait to see you go
If you loved me by now you'd be at home

I saw you sneak back in wired for sound
You said "go back to sleep" and you put on your nightgown
So tomorrow I will tell you, tomorrow you will know
Tomorrow I will fix everything, and tomorrow I'll go home

For now I'll lay under your blacklight
And I'll be thankful for your stereo
Sometimes I can't wait to see you go
If you loved me by now you'd be at home
If you loved me by now...