Ideaspace (TWENTY-FIRST CENTURY MANIC SCHIZOID DREAM GIRL!)

[Verse 1]
I've spent so long being fractured
I don't even know how to explain where I've been and what I've done
My life is always out of order, I can only remember hair colors and the weather
And the music I was listening to back then
My brain's a mess, yeah, there was so much stress that
I broke and split and became nonhuman
There's a weird place inside of my head that only I know about and it's filled with dead things
And old characters I made when I was just a teenager and didn't know better bout dissociation
And all of the seizures and all of the meds that I took that did nothing cuz I was too fat

[Chorus]
I've been feeling metastable
I feel like I need a break

[Verse 2]
And it's not like we've figured everything out about this!
The doctors don't even know what the cause is or where it comes from or why it exists in the first place
But we do know we feel way better like this
And we run out of fingers trying to count the times clinical psychiatry has failed us
Cuz it breaks you and takes from you, hyperbolizing everything minor thing while ignoring the bigger scene
Post-trauma and every ounce of abuse I experienced broke me and split me down
Into the fragments that you see before you and we don't know if you're afraid of us now
Despite the fact that we've been like this the whole time or at least as far as memory serves
Please don't run away from me now

[Chorus]
We've been feeling metastable
We feel like we're gonna break
We've been feeling so unstable
Can't think about anything
Anything at all

[Bridge]
We're all just ideas in space
We're all just ideas in space
We're all just ideas in space
We're all just ideas in space
We're all just ideas in space
We're all just ideas in space
We're all just ideas in space
We're all just ideas in space
We're all just ideas in space, space, space, space, space, space
We're all just ideas in space, space, space, space, space, space
We're all just ideas in space, space, space, space, space, space
We're all just ideas in space, space, space, space, space, space
We're all just ideas in space, space, space, space, space, space
We're all just ideas in space, space, space, space, space, space
1, 2, 3, 4
1, 2, 3, go!

[Chorus]
We've been going metastable
Rampancy's our daily life
My head's swimming through ideaspace
I'd like a break