I Took A Year

I never considered that
I chose to stay numb over tears
I forgot myself to keep momentum
I took a year and stretched it ten fold
But today i live, i live it down
With both eyes just now reawakening
Still sore and sober
Still sober for no reason
I have every reason
I can be just as addictive as the next so take care of me
I am your responsibility
You wanted to change it all so start with an infant
Is this it?
Have you given it to me?
Is this the meaning?
Have you forced it upon me or am i hanging myself needlessly?
Damn your riddles stop speaking in tongues
Let me hear it, let me feel it across my face if need be
You've given it all still i want even more
Sober expression. Numb in motive
Take even more
Damn your riddles
They change nothing
I will stand back and take it all in
I am still myself
I'm still intact
Just let me rest. Just let me rest
Just let me go
Yesterday i was left just like before and again every night after
Now i can accept the common them in unconsciousness
Temptation's only a word now with no potential of a body
No is not so hard
I'm the one to leave of an honest will
Confidence can no longer be stolen under the table
Me