Every Reason To

I've never since felt life as dry as it was inside you
I've tasted plenty and it only made me gag
I wanted more, and now I have it all, without you
If I could have only left without that thought
I would have left with him

And you a childless wreck, I would have
Taken it upon myself to leave you strapped
With the burden of unclear thinking
That's what you do best, you're always
You're always thinking
And not acting rationally
You just needed someone to love you
God knows I don't, I never did so disappear

You gave me every reason to
And still I didn't break your face in

So where's my son and where's your scars?
Do you still limp from my fist fucking fetish?
And my midnight naked messages in your ears?
So why didn't they come?
Why wasn't she born?

She would call you mother
And I would call you the host
And you would just call on every
Lie you could to feel just and sane

Keep your word, how little do I really understand?
I knew enough not to touch you there
I should have saved myself
For the last but I still broke in the beginning
And broke your hold in the end
And on you went barren and content
And I, the other direction
Experienced in nothing special