I(SLASH)O

It'll take me years to forget what you said in the back of my car
And I don't blame you for leaving
I'm just a fucked up mess with or without you

Bury me where the grass doesn't grow
Where the sun doesn't shine anymore
I'm just a bad expression of good intentions
And if you only knew where my thoughts wandered to
When you stabbed me in my chest
This would have never happened
Wish this never happened
Wish you never happened

Everybody's plastic and we're living in a realm filled up with static
And we're living in a box filled up with nice things
Everybody thinks they need to achieve a status
Ten rolls of quarters in my backseat
Have no aspirations that I can't meet
Have no conversations that need me
Just leave me alone with apathy
Ain't got shit to do wake up at 6 pm
I've got some friends in town but I don't bother them
And then they hit me up with something to do
But it's cool I'd rather just sit here in my room
And write shitty sad raps no one listens to
Hit me up and let me know that you are feeling it too
And if you're feeling it too I've got love for you
But don't worry all of this will end real soon

I will run from all my issues as if they're not in my head
I will tell you that I love you when my love's actually dead
Chemicals and proteins make up every fiber of my being
How the fuck could you possibly think
That this life has some meaning
I'm a mess and I'm a wreck and I don't know what has been said
All I know is that I miss you and I wish that I were dead
Please tell mom that this was not her fault
And at the end of the night I can still see the sadness in my eyes