I Need Backup

[Chorus: bandanabloom]
Everyone put up a front, I don't care to see past it
Feel free to keep acting
Wings spread wide man it ain't easy to rebalance and
Lying on the floor like I need backup
My dad said things getting hard to keep track of
Letting go of dreams that I used to seek after
It's like every time I get cut I bleed faster
I'm still tryna grow up man, ducking weed whackers

[Verse 1: bandanabloom]
Yeah, sheets up in a tangle and them papers strewn at random
The containers on the table empty, shoes collecting dust
Whole world is getting muted, pussy, you done said enough
Aiming rubbish in the bucket, score is googolplex to none
That's the room to me
Doom, gloom, and truancy
Is on my mind, the movements far and few between
Won't roll my sleeves up
Body and the soul shivering
Could fit this whole dinner in a teacup
Smoke and mirrors form and dissipate
Keep a train of thought for like a minute straight tops
On the search for (Hope)
Out that little clay box
Acting stupid all the time, wasn't in a great spot
Late at night, a strange aura gonna fill the space up
Comfort coming from the rhythm of precipitation
Pitter, patter, pitter help forgetting where I came from
And that sense of safety probably gonna indicate something

[Verse 2: klovyn]
They say a picture paints a thousand words
Well, I'm brushing up on how to write a better verse
You think I trust to tell you everything that's on my heart?
I'll wear it on my arm 'cause truth be told I've been in worse
Closing up this can of worms
Nine months ago I couldn't think it'd ever work
It always ached, the thought of leaving home for long-term
But now I'm back to the nest
And shit feels as stressed as it was
When I was obessing over a fucking life turn
People turn when they see me rushing to downplay
They talk to me and put pressure right on my cold brain
Like, "I hope, promise, swear you'll be great someday"
Well, I "hope, promise, swear that I'll find a way"
"Think it over but don't overthink it too much"
The fuck you mean?
I'm always writing for an answer
Laika was the answer
Now I'm back to where I began
Lost everything I proved
But I guess I'll just do it again

[Chorus: bandanabloom]
Everyone put up a front, I don't care to see past it
Feel free to keep acting
Wings spread wide man it ain't easy to rebalance and
Lying on the floor like I need backup
My dad said things getting hard to keep track of
Letting go of dreams that I used to seek after
It's like every time I get cut I bleed faster
I'm still tryna grow up man, ducking weed whackers

[Spoken Outro]
Oh, how unfortunate
Mmm, mmm
Down the hatch
If you actually— I'm actually gonna drink this
First off