I’m glad

It's like I'm trying to swim with broken bones
You say I know I feel the same
You don't know my name, I'm gonna get known
You had to know I had to change

Trying to make sense of this sick soul
You said that you have just been maimed
I tried to fix you, but you had to go
It makes me sad to see your face

Struggle down down deep, I'm losing sleep
Restless eyes can't find any peace
Pulled left to right, until I'm two
A painting, memories burnt straight through

Try to carve me down but it doesn't work that way
Scrapped art left abandoned, cast downed now decayed
I'm hanging by a thread, but I'm still here
Playing shows with broken bones just to get my name known

Cus I wanna be something, just someone
To nobody else but just me
You wanna cut at my throat, leave me undone
It feels like your just gonna leave

Repetition, my obsession, messes up everything
Intermission, my decision, I just can't bear to see
Sitting in a shallow grave, forgot to pray I lost my faith
In friendships and best friends, no it doesn't end

Shattered glass, cut feet, on my knees, bleeding
Conscious leaving, brother screaming
Constant fights with death I guess I'm lucky that I left
Things won't work out again, you know I always second guess

Which is the real one and what is fake
Whats the difference with dreams when all they do is just take
Different parts of me, I'm sinking all between
I'm left with suicidal thoughts and an emptiness to just flee

Again, again, again, and again, repetition, on itself, look at me, it doesn't end
Sinking with a self-made anxiety, casket closed, so lie to me
Would to take a look inside, and say it's just alright to me

No, you wouldn't, it's all lies, nothing new, these scars no, no they won't hide
Should I be honest for once in my life and say ye I'm just fine