I’m Coming Home

Yo
(Laughter)
Here we go. Ya know?
Here we go
I wanna just speak to the world and have someone listen
Ya know?
Just someone
Alright, I've loved in a whole lot of ways
Sometimes, I know it and other times I may just think that I don't know how to love at all
But I won't stop looking for that love that I know exists
The one that's in my heart and the one that I really miss
The one that I felt with my kids' mom
About, well, shit it's four years now, oh my God
It's been longer than I thought
It used to be three, but it's still inside of me
Like it happened yesterday and you know what?
I feel like nothing I say will change the fact that I still love her
And that's alright, because love lasts forever and that's true tonight
And you know what?
Even if it breaks me inside, I'll stand up tall like a man and I won't hide the fact
That I'm not crazy, I'm not
I'm in remission and I, well, I will never stop rapping, because it's just a record of my life
One that I want to give to my ex-wife
And you know what? I love everything about her
About her
And you might say that's really crazy, that's dumb to love somebody that won't give it back
Well, I gotta let you know something that's true
I'm 32 years old in a month and yo
It just means that I've learned a lot and you may not understand and that's okay, because I have a different perspective than you and you know
There's nothing I won't do to try to express what it's like being me to express what it's like seeing the world I see and you know what?
Well, that's okay, so I'll just commit to the fact that I say, "Shannon, I love you"
And that's okay, I can say it, it's true, because I've got free speech in a county that doesn't dare mess with a man's free will to fear and you know what?
I mean fear in terms of reverence and awe and love and you know what?
That's another thing I'm bringing to you is a definition of love you never knew was true
See, part of love is fear and there's nothing that sounds bizarre nothing that's weird about that, because it takes a lot of heart to let down your walls and let the world show through your art
And I guess this is just my way of saying that I love her every single day
Even though she's gone and she may hate me there's nothing inside that will ever stop me from living up to the promise I made when I looked into her eyes in front of a judge and I said that I would love her forever and shit this is hard this is really deep but this is just me and you know what?
You've gotta see that this is what it feels like to be a man and my kids I know you will feel this jam, because I love you just like I love her and you know what?
God damn it, this is fucking absurd, I'm letting my emotions out on tape and you know what?
Well, I guess I'd better say that this is the realest form of me you'll ever know, because these emotions are what I show when I let down my walls it's true and I tell you that I love you