I died when i was 16

I see my way’s fucked up
But I don’t intend on changing
I never say what’s up
I already see all the faking
I know my hate won’t front
I express it and I’m hatesick
Wake up to a hangover
Every day it’s just the same shit
They all gon regret it when I walk out
Like I’ve always said, I’ll never calm down
I don’t ever really talk now
Sipping whisky till it’s all out
Bitches don’t care bout your heart now
And now that I’ve said it she might call now
I don’t ever deal with fallout
I just hide and hit the bong now
Would shit change if I never saw that
Take another hit till my eyеs roll back
Everything is blurry, no direction, no path
Try each day and I always fall flat
If I triеd to get clean I’d just fucking relapse
Too restless, I can never relax
Tear down my past just to cover my tracks
Tried to get help once, I can never go back
Everything I do fucking hurts like shit
Fuck your help, I stay locked in my pit
Can’t put work into fixing this
I’m beyond repair, disappear in the mist
Getting too high just to cope
Only peace when I’m breathing this smoke
I don’t ever wanna be known
Fuck all you people, I’m alone