How Would That Feel?

[LA'AN]
Did I hear that right?
Did she just shine a spotlight
On her innermost feelings like it's no big deal?
Say whatever, whenever you like

You'd presume with all my mastery
To pursue flights of fancy, easy
Who am I kidding? I've never found that part of me
'Cause I'm designed to colour inside the lines

Cool and methodical, way too responsible
I can't help it
Sometimes I peek through a keyhole and see people happy
I admit

It might be time to change my paradigm
If only I can let go of thе wheel
My fear replaced with total faith
I'm fiеrcely free and really real
Flying blind
How would that feel?

This all makes me so uncomfortable
I want to let go, be vulnerable
Who am I kidding? I've never met that side of me
In my defence, the truth has a consequence

I won't watch the whole thing spin out of control
If I have the chance

It might be time to change my paradigm
If I can only let go of the wheel
My fear replaced with total faith
I'm fiercely free and really real
Flying blind
How would that feel?

In another time we had a life together
Could time repeat or will it unravel?
Be careful what you start
Make one mistake and blow it all apart
Or worse, break my own heart
Who am I kidding? I've never found that part of me

It might be time to change my paradigm
If only I can let go of the wheel
It's nice to dream that I could change my mind
Deep down, I know I will never let go
My fear is staked, I have no faith
Contented freedom is not real
Flying blind
How would that feel?