Hourglass

5th attempt to slip your wrench into slicks ascension pit again
The ripples end in this quite lake, for once i make the right mistake
Beside your face instead of mine, tonight there lies an empty chime
Of a sound that once would ring you alive
But now my hands around your throat as i wring you alive
And it never felt better im truly ready for whats next
Now if only i could delete one stupid simple little text
The rippling effect starts again its darkening my heart with sin
But part of slicks perseverance wants to win
Ill triumph over negative, why bother to develop it and end up fucking myself?
So im emotionally celibate
Embellished in the scheduling of hell within my skeleton
I ripped you out of my chest along with my heart im finally well again
Born a queens native, till the queen cremated my soul
I let her go the minute she faked it
Shes now replacing her vacance with adjacent relations
Will im just sitting at home depressed patiently waiting
For her to realize that mistakes that shes making
But i dont think she realizes the fate that shes breaking
So many compromisations to be the one who you'd stay with
And all im left with is the scent of a whores dirty fragrance
Sometimes lifes a bitch and theres no telling the whore so im telling her off
Next my heart shields go down i won’t be forgetting the cost
And thats even if it happens again, shit
Will i ever be happy again? yea
But this time not from dead eyes from dead presidents
Maybe this time next year i can afford to pay rent
Maybe get myself some shoes that are not from payless
Instead of cashing your emotional paychecks cuz now im empty

I no longer got time for your love or your lies
Shes the type to feel accomplished when others call her heartless
I no longer got time for your love or your lies
Shes the type to feel accomplished when others call her heartless
I no longer got time for your love or your lies
Shes the type to feel accomplished when others call her heartless
I no longer got time for your love or your lies
Goodbye, im done with that vibe

15, dropped out of school, joined the fast lane
Those i call my family i dont even share my last name
Those i share my last name with arent family
Just an inner circle of rumors and drug based tragedies
Other than my sister fuck you all, ill never miss ya
I hope you see me on tv on day and throw your fist up
Just like you did through all of the door panels
Half the windows in the house, and every thrown lit candle
Such a broken home the roaches and the mice couldn't handle
Word to the picture of Alfons on the mantle
The ONLY real motherfucker in this motherfucker
Dont wanna hear the truth aunt Deb? than mind ya business motherfucker
I'd say i hate you to, but im not that cold
I mean you did save my life when i was 6 weeks old
When that bitch that birthed me tried to disperse me
And left me with white hair, a scarred lung, and a bitterness that cursed me
Dont get this confused with a sympathetic illusion
I got this look in my eye and duct taped door panels to prove it
I remember when id drink cobras with Dave and Alysson
And lie to them every time about my scars and bandages
The 2 cigarette burn scars that Alysson sketched in me
I think about it and smile, hey look, a happy scarred memory
Thats why im getting the first tattoo you ever got
Using the 2 scars as eyes right over the same spot
Got no time to fuck around gotta get these ends
And i ain’t fuckin around when i say i miss my friends
Maybe if i told the truth about all of the scars that appeared on me
We never even would of lost contact
Maybe you woulda seen how much i needed ya and loved ya
At least Spizzy's still here, man you my fucking brother
One thing Dave said that always play in my head over and over
"Ross ain't a fan of beer and weed so much as not being sober"

I no longer got time for your love or your lies
My blood line feels accomplished with an emotional moshpit
I no longer got time for your love or your lies
My blood line feels accomplished with an emotional moshpit
I no longer got time for your love or your lies
My blood line feels accomplished with an emotional moshpit
I no longer got time for your love or your lies
Goodbye, im done with that vibe