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42 days in this state
Homesickness at its core
I close my eyes and ears like a newborn kit
And I hold my breath as I sink faster than ever before
I can't help but summon someone
I don't feel safe when I'm alone
If only my blankets would come and swallow me whole
Like a monster that feeds off of all the guilt I own

Return me to where you found me
And kiss me before you go
My dollhouse has gathered so many cobwebs
The cеiling dips down low
Abandoned are things that my memory can't bеar to love
The pansies are dying and all the young girls play too rough

Don't wanna love the things
That nobody can talk about
I'm scared to be shunned for the parts of me that are not clean
I'm still covered in dirt from all of the times I was too mean
So, tonight I'm a curled fawn
Sweet Bambi drowned deep in his tears
I swallow my agony, hope it will be gone by dawn
But in the morning I wake up to see its carcass on the lawn

Return me to where you found me
And kiss me before you go
Even though I'm aching to return home
I'll still say I'll miss you so
Abandoned are things that my memory can't bear to love
The pansies are dying and all the young girls play too rough
The pansies are dying and all the young girls play too rough