Holding In The World

Late last night while i lay still
My arms pressed on the window sill
I dreamed a dream of better times
When lights they flashed behind your eyes
I don't regret what i've become
But i do regret what i can't be
There with you lying still praying up to
God instead to take me
And as you fade away
I'm holding in the world
Sometimes i feel like i'm superman
With a heart of steel just like my old man
But most times i'm just scared to death to think
Of you inside of this whole mess
And i hope that you were proud to be
The one that took so much shit from me
And i hope to god someday soon
We'll see that all your suffering
Is just a dream
And as you fade away
I'm holding in the world
The lights don't shine anymore