​hikikomori

Zeph:
I been sitting in my room lucid dreaming for weeks
My tongue is swelled up, I can't breathe, I can't muster a word, speak
Think I'm in control and I walk on a lonely road
And I talk to these succubi and I tell them to leave me alone
Lose myself in my phone
I got an addiction to others, I don't take care of myself
Ain't been the same since my mother, I hide my face in the covers
Idea of dying, i love it
But I can't let these people down
I look into the stars and watch thesе fuckers frown
Never been to keen of taking carе of me for myself
Always put others before me, whether the weather is stormy
I wish that someone had warned me of the issues before me
But I just succumb to my brain and text her again when I'm horny
Tryna get off of a pill called inertia
You might've bruised me but I'm sorry that I hurt ya
Once again a pest, I'm sorry to desert ya

NickG:
I wake up apathetic, hung up on my past regrets
I'm hungry for success but I can't do it in no fast succession
This shit's a process and I know it, watch my progress
While I'm growing, leave a mark with my ascension
I'm a roast and lacrimal
Some days I wish I never met you and I wish I was alone
But you visit me in my dreams. I'd be kicking it and fucking screaming
And wishing that you were me so you know how I'm really feeling
I sit in Hikikomori
I forge emotion and story, stare at the ceiling, this feeling a solace
Talk to me fluently through my conscious eulogy
From a younger me bubbling up, I won't make a fool of me, know
I sit in Hikikomori
I forge emotion and story, stare at the ceiling, this feeling a solace
Talk to me fluently through my conscious eulogy
From a younger me bubbling up, I won't make a fool of me, know

Cortez:
Life's just an endless circle, then you croak
Slaving for a job that will place me when I slit my throat
This shit's a joke with a shitty punch line
Mai Sakurajima, I'm invisible to their eyes
Clocking, clock out, that's how I spend my time
Remember PlayStation cheat codes on a notebook line?
Remember Sketcher commercials in neon lights?
Now I fuck outta spite, [?] and anything that acted right
God bless a man I put under my sights
Watch his guts paint the wall so nice
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Zeph, nickg & cortez:
Aye, im just a hikikomori
Sit in my room observing momento mori
I got a lot of stupid shit i need to fix
And i know i won't get better like this
Like this, like this, life's a bitch
Another day scribbled in the wall in chalk
Another day where im refusing to talk
Im in denial when the going gets hot
Strive to be a better person, i just watch myself rot