HEROIN

[Intro]
Fuck
[Verse]
I'm tired of quick revenge
I wanna be the heroin that resides deep inside of your syringe
I just wanna blow up like dynamite by the increments
So everyday you wake up upset because I'm living it
What the fuck's a love song, cuz now I write the opposite
It was never my fault, you gaslight the Obvious
My heart pumps at triple 6 during arguments
Because When tensions rise common sense and logic do not exist
Come Abuse me, you're the reason that I write like this
Inhale the monoxide while I vent and take in viruses
Everyday it's snotnosed people clogging up my sinuses
Emotional damage got me contemplating violent shit
Baby, I had to fall to fight like this
You would kill yourself if you had the life I live
But karma is a force and life's said to be a bitch
So don't act surprised when you wanna rid yourself a lifeless prick
I'm at the brink
Your doors are gonna need some Brinks
Think to myself as I mentally bleed into the sink
It's happening in my head and I'm bout to live a dream
Got knives and pistols laid around the scene
This is targeted to the multiple people who made me this way
You would be killing yourself if you even saw me today
You're the reason that i was even living astray
I Grew up around multiple bad habits everyday
I guess it's rubbing off
Concoct molotovs out of a box of Smirnoff
Allegedly, on this edge I lean
Everybody at the bottom begins to scream, a great relief
Fuck, this was all a dream?
Where I'm from it's obsessions with cream
I feel like letting emotions loose just makes me cream
The heavy weight in my chest begins to sink
It's in my stomach now so it's time to have a drink
I'm still trying to retrieve repressed emotions since I'm the best at holding
I'm bipolar, my byproduct was when I was gonna give the final fuck and self destruct
Because I'd depress the motions
And now it's locomotives hitting me when I'm joltin' and it sucks cuz that's when
You all notice, and then hocus pocus, I look like an asshole to you posers
And then I get to throwin ammo til you're decomposin'
And then suddenly I'm in prison because for some reason i was chosen
I'm responsible for the careers of a multitude of bitches
I transformed your life, how these dudes turn into bitches
But when you fall, I'm not lending a hand, you wouldn't listen
I've been tryna bend a man til his brain begins to drippin'
And don't try to manipulate me for work because I'm Christian
I am one but there's certain limits that you're constantly hittin'
I was growing up, getting into fights and constantly hidden
I was losing my mind til it was all of me slippin

[Break]

[Verse 2]
For the things I've done, I'm surprised I have no mugshots
Growing up I was stressing til a lung pops
I don't stop
I'm beat yet serene and everything around me is the equivalent of a motherfucking cumsock
And every day I wake up impulsively when it's early
Scratching up my body like "why do I feel so dirty?"
I Look in the mirror and feel disgusted so it's bye bye birdie
Then I think about it too much and erupt and begin cursing
Nowadays, I'm a paradox cuz I care yet don't care about what you worms think
I wanna not give a fuck but then my dick ends up figuratively bursting
You Self-entitled Timid Demons have my dick burning
And now I'm on the web looking for results surfing
I need a team that is encouraging
You against our belief system, that's considered heresy
I need a crown of thorns on my dome
I need my home to feel like a home
When I say begone then I need you gone
And Truth be told everyone is all wrong
I'm a king but feel like a pawn
When you touch me you need to just stop
Hands to yourself and my hand on my Glock
Fuck time, I don't need a watch
Because it's time for all of us to just drop
Choppitty choppitty chop chop chop
I Hope that this is the end of this song
I Hope that this is the end of this song