Hell’s Winter

[Verse 1]
Follow me into the chateau of my mind
Where I've been tryna find
A sign of higher highs that's fly and quite divine
To keep me level headed 'fore I fall in the abyss
Of pretentiousness and desolate, intense, depressive shit
Fuck it, let's take a trip into that dungeon
We could see if I plummet or make it back to the summit
Or maybe I'll find a balance that's valid and not dramatic
And use it to make the patterns more easier to stomach
Or maybe I'll just shrink 'til what's left is my sacrifice
In order to get closer towards my paradise
The deal has been set, I done rolled my pair of dice
And yeah I fear death, but I'm way more scared of life
Cause time's got me lifeless, drowning in whiteness
Watching it all pierce through the depths of my skin
Impairing my sight and it'd prolly be frightenin'
If I didn't invite this, I'm kind of excited, ight then

So 'tis the season where everything just decays
From every single tree to the cells that grow in my brain
This hourglass of happiness I've been tryna sustain
The sand is what inspired me, and it's down to a grain
The undergoing of change with no definite gains
The pain that will remain 'til the dummy is slain
And the dummy just so happens to be myself, a scared prisoner
Dare to enter, welcome to Hell's winter

[Hook]
Where I'll be your friend
Pray that we end up dead, so that we could ascend
And like Big Brother said "I'll never do it again
Cause this is the end, cause this is the end"

[Verse 2]
All of my sicknesses took the initiative of just befriending me
Instead of ending me, now they're definitely my enemies
They'll be the end of me, that's just a prediction
Cause I cling to irony, so the end should be different
And I swear I'm optimistic, but that just doesn't help
Whether I'm that or the opposite, I just can't free myself
From this never-ending saga that always goes good to bad
But the good that exists are only delusions that I have
And I can't let them go, so damn them devils
I can't let them show this damned and enclosed
Path in which I'm drifting in, I'll slant and tremble
Way back to the beginning where I'm bland and dreadful
Then echo my words up to the astrals
Hoping I'm not ignored even though I'm a hassle
I'll never be restored so I'll just have to battle
The cycle's been reborn just to leave me in shackles

So 'tis the season where everything just decays
From every single tree to the cells that grow in my brain
This hourglass of happiness I've been tryna sustain
The sand is what inspired me, and it's down to a grain
The undergoing of change with no definite gains
The pain that will remain 'til the dummy is slain
And the dummy just so happens to be myself, a scared prisoner
Dare to enter, welcome to Hell's winter

[Hook]

[Outro]
Boulder;
Metaphor for the heavy weight that now rests upon my shoulders..
As I get older, accepting the fact that my heart has grown colder
No longer warm like so(u)lar, feeling soulless
Like an empty vessel that's tipping over into the ocean
So watch me drown..
Everything's loud..
Don't make a sound..
Just listen how..
Everything now..
Seems so profound..
There's no more frowns
There's only smiles..
'Tis my new house..
I'm happy now..
Hell's Winter..