Heavy Thinker

I'm a heavy thinker
But I'm trying to quit
I'm a heavy thinker
But I'm trying to quit
I'm a heavy thinker
But I'm trying to quit

I've got good memories
Even of my bad days
I don't wanna lie down
And die here in last place
See my future fate written
In the lines of my dad's face
I don't wanna be finding myself
While I'm digging my dad's grave
So I left then
Tried to find a new town
That I could invest in
Maybe this is not the life
That any of us destined
They say you find yourself
When you really try
But I only found
Questions
Questions
That never last long
All the things that we love
May they pass on
Power outage
Lighting matches
In a bad storm
My dad and I wake up
With the coyotes at dawn
My first room had a trap door
I fell into it
And left a piece of me there
That I never went back for
The silence
The barn silos
And the stars
Aren't these the only friends
You ever asked for?
Thankful for my 20s
They taught me to fail
I'm thankful for my storms
They taught me to sail
I'm thankful for my scars
They gave me my skin
I'm thankful for my songs
They made me want to sing

That's the sound of the coyotes
That's the sound of the old me
In the wind
I don't think you really know me
I've always been hoping
For a reckoning
Don't say it was what it was
Or it will be enough
Because it is what it is
What it is
I'm a heavy thinker
But I'm trying to quit

Yeah I'm a heavy thinker
But I'm trying to quit
Take care of yourself
You treat yourself like shit
Old nike dunks
A plaid shirt
A broken Mac port
Hand me down headphones
Wrinkled moleskin
And a Jansport
All the trips that we took
Without a passport
All the things that
We confessed without a dashboard
I've been around the world and back
Without a bad turn
And I've got friends checking in
All the time but I don't answer
I don't answer
When it gets too dark
Remember we have lanterns
When we get too lost
Remember that we still have
Your grandfather's camper
On this mad search
Man I've been too proud and present
Since like two thousand seven
I was too sad for one
I had two house depression
The rain came down
And knocked the roof out of heaven
And I learned how to move out in seconds

That's the sound of the coyotes
That's the sound of the old me
In the wind
I don't think you really know me
I've always been hoping
For a reckoning
Don't say it was what it was
Or it will be enough
Because it is what it is
What it is
I'm a heavy thinker
But I'm trying to quit
Yeah I'm trying to quit
I'm trying to learn how to live

And I've got demons
But I won't let them in
I won't let them in
But I won't let them win
Man I've got demons
But I won't let them in
I won't let them in
But I won't let them win
Man I've got demons
But I won't let them in
I won't let them in
But I won't let them win
Man I've got demons
But I won't let them in
I won't let them in
But I won't let them win
Man I've got demons
But I won't let them in
I won't let them in
I won't let them win
Because I'm a heavy thinker
But I'm trying to quit
And I won't let my demons win
Because I'm trying to quit

I'm trying to learn how to live