“Heavy Heart” follows up “MK Ultra” after the abuse and horror subside, but the psychological harms (think PTSD) are still very present. The speaker begins with the conviction to face his inner turmoil, and continues through into flashbacks of the more haunting atrocities he remembers.
[Verse 1]
Experience these things
My chest digs further in and it gets hard to breathe
Don’t fight it
Make this easy
[Pre-Chorus]
Sometimes I wish I had wings
Fly far away from this life
It’s a long road, it's a long road
[Chorus 1]
As the water beads upon the window
Turn the sad song up on the radio
What's left with me is a memory
When the flesh moves on
[Verse 2]
Such curiosity
These thoughts go on all day
And it takes hold of me
But fighting isn't easy
[Pre-Chorus]
Sometimes I wish I had wings
Fly far away from this life
It’s a long road, it's a long road
[Chorus 2]
As the water beads upon the window
Turn the sad song up on the radio
Will the voices haunt when the flesh moves on
And the clouds block out the rays
When the feeling hangs upon a halo
I can only try my best just to let it go
What's left with me is a memory
And the things I have to say
[Bridge]
Resting now, their bodies hit the ground
Nightmares creep over me I hear the sounds
(Yes they all hit the ground)
Children scream, their mothers bleed hung upside down
Scarlet ropes and sadistic minds surround me
I spent all of my life confined in secrecy
What you see is but shell of what I am on the inside
Clouds of blackness strike lightning
There’s nothing above
I’m falling, falling, I’m falling below
(There’s nothing above)
I’m falling, falling, I’m falling below, below
[Instrumental]
[Chorus 2]
As the water beads upon the window
Turn the sad song up on the radio
Will the voices haunt when the flesh moves on
And the clouds block out the rays
When the feeling hangs upon a halo
I can only try my best just to let it go
What's left with me is a memory
And the things I have to say
[Segue]
Heavy Heart was written by Misha “Bulb” Mansoor & Jake Bowen & Mark Holcomb & Spencer Sotelo.
Heavy Heart was produced by Periphery.
Periphery released Heavy Heart on Tue Jan 20 2015.