Hate Me Slow

[Verse 1: Manga Saint Hilare]
I know you don't like it when I'm not picking up
And I play truant
Phone numbers that you don't know
And you roll through it
Clothes and chaps
Before I show you it
Dumb situations that I throw you in
I just tell these white lies so fluent
I should be a bigger man and don't do it
I just find myself doing what I know I shouldn't be
Even though I promised you that I won't do it

I'm just adding to the stereotypes and clichés
Finding it harder to look in your eyes and each day
Chipping a way at that small bit of trust that we made
It's a bleak maze
'Cause sometimes I really was just sitting in my house all day
But it's sad when the he-say, she-say holds more weight
And I know I fuck up
Sorry for breakfast, sorry for lunch
Sorry for being sorry man, I know i'm a cunt
But I know I can learn to be the man that you want
And need, I know it's hard to believe
I got the same promises on repeat
She said, "give me a reason to stay around"
I replied and my phone, face down

[Chorus x2: Manga Saint Hilare & J Grey]
Just hate me slow and love me fast
(Hate me slow and love me fast)
Embrace my future, accept my past
(Embrace my future, accept my past)
Trust my flaws and kiss my scars
(Trust my flaws and kiss my scars)

[Bridge: J Grey]
Yo, where are you Manga?
Like, she just phoned me to find out where you are
And no one knows where you are like
You need to stop disappearing like this
Let one of us know where you are please

[Bridge part 2: Manga Saint Hilare]
Just give me one more last chance (one more last chance)
The fact I find it easy just makes it so hard (it makes it so hard)
Look, i'm not perfect, not one of us here are (not one of us here are)
I know the times that I let down fuckries and pars

[Verse 2: Manga Saint Hilare]
But you know that I love you right
I know I'm loving you wrong but I love you right
I can't really imagine what it must be like
Putting up with my shit for the hundredth time
I don't know how you deal with all the lust and lies
Wandering eyes, scroll through then unlikes
I know you wanna listen to your mum's advice
"Fuck that guy, will never be a son of mine
Until he mans up and treats you right" alright
Alright, alright, alright, I know she's right
But i'm trying, i'm trying, i'm trying, you know i'm trying
Lies all lies and lies, I know you're tired, I lie
And I don't wanna make you bitter, let's make this better
But if you go, then you go
But if you stick around, as long as we're together just

[Chorus x2]

[Outro: J Grey]
It's always 4 in the morning and I'm tired fam
And it's always 4 in the morning

I am tired, i'm tired of stupid shit like um
Okay, I'm tired of going on instagram
Going on the explore page
And just, just seeing some random, perfect looking girl
With four thousand three hundred and twenty-nine million likes
On a picture of her toe
But this toe is like the most perfect toe you've ever seen in your life
And then you go on her page and you see that this bitch is flawless
And then the next day, you just go on instagram
And apparently this bitch has got a twin
Because there's another flawless girl
Who's got four thousand three hundred and twenty-nine thousand billion likes
And you're just like, where are these girls?
Who are these girls who are flawless everyday
Just living life, with their Chanel bags and their perfect lives
And oh look she's jetting out to [?], Taiwan and singapore
And eating at Nobu every single minute of the day
And it's like, I cannot actually pay my phone bill right now

Loving yourself is potentially the hardest thing to do in the 21st century