Hard To Grasp

I’m blocking off these roads
And burning all these bridges down
For myself
Medicating tryna find a
Better way to feel
Passing up my time by
Counting up these bills and pills
Guess the price of happiness’ll be my health

But they don’t understand
It’s hard for them to grasp
One eye looking forward and the other looking back
Hard to focus on the future
When you’re getting passed

Always felt outta place
Two pills to the face
Thinking bout the past
But I can’t remake
Do it for the cost
What the cost gon take?
Do it for thе game
I don’t like heartbrеak
Do it for the people who
Just wanna feel safe
Do it for the people who
Just wanna see change
Tug and pull but I’m stuck
In chains
Captor’s none other than my brain
And I just wanna break free
For my passions dammit
You know I’d bleed
Calm and calculated
I need to think
Stressing myself out
Yeah I need a drink

Pour a cup of sin
Now I’m six shots in
And I’m yelling at you
From outside your window

I don’t think you’ll get it
No you’ll never really get it
Cause it’s
Kinda really hard for me to let go

Nintendo with the flow I switch
Stay focused tattooed on my wrist
I’m just tryna steer this shit
Bitch so hot need oven mits
Ball so hard need no assist
I’m just saying how it is
I’d
Go thru all the pain again
If it meant I’d still learn from that shit
Yeah

But they don’t understand
It’s hard for them to grasp
Two pills in my right hand
And a bad bitch in my left
Told my teachers
“Fuck You”
But I still end up with class
She be touching on me
Yeah
Addicted like I’m crack
Aye

Wash it off
Can’t walk it off
Gave to much
Now I’m too involved
Cared to much
Now I’m too enthralled
Drugged too much
Now I’m nodding off

Trip went bad cause I’m still stuck
Seeing you when I got my eyes closed
Binged so hard of drugs
Tryna fix myself
That I went psycho

And I don’t wanna let go
Too cold
No ice on my soul
And I don’t wanna be alone
So won’t you please
Hold me close

Pour a cup of gin
Now I’m 12 shots in
And I’m straight up throwing rocks
From outside your window

I don’t think you’ll get it
No you’ll never really get it
Cause it’s
Kinda really hard for me to let go

Overly obsessive
Overtly send distresses
They don’t get the message
And it’s honestly impressive
History repeats itself
If you don’t learn from your lesson
And you gon lose it all
If you ain’t counting your blessings

But they don’t understand
It’s hard for them to grasp
Two pills in my right hand
And a bad bitch in my left
Told my teachers
“Fuck You”
But I still end up with class
She be touching on me
Yeah
Addicted like I’m crack
Aye

I guess that I cracked aye
Falling through the cracks aye
I ain’t never disappear
Yeah I’m coming right back
Aye

Houdini with the magic act
Yeah
That ain’t no minor task
It ain’t that complicated
But it’s hard for them to grasp
Yeah