​happiness (demo)

[Chorus]
Would you believe me if I told you I was happy?
Would you give a fuck or even ask me?
For some reason I can't seem
To find my happiness, happiness
'Cause I don't know what happy is, happy is
Maybe I should try
'Cause I forgot what my smile looks like

[Verse 1]
Barricade myself inside my room
Not leaving my bed until it's noon
I'm more sad than everyone assumes
I'm good at hiding how I feel from you
Got a feeling, I don't want a feeling
Everybody tell me I'm nuts
Honestly, I just wanna be a little better than I was last month
And I don't mean to start a problem with you
But I got a lot of problems too
And I don't think you can fix them
But if you're willing to listen

[Chorus]
Would you believe me if I told you I was happy?
Would you give a fuck or even ask me?
For some reason I can't seem
To find my happiness, happiness
'Cause I don't know what happy is, happy is
Maybe I should try (Maybe I should try)
'Cause I forgot what my smile looks like

[Post-Chorus]
I forgot what my smile looks like
I forgot what my smile looks

[Verse 2]
I need a therapist, there's just no way that I'm bearing this
Someone tell me it's okay before I find a terrorist
And scale that fucking building I was scared of
And just prepared to hit a crowd of flailing tourists
In Paris all unaware of it
I needed you, I needed more than these will do
Prescribe you some of these
And chew, then swallow like they teach to do
This fucking stupid kid you're such a freak
You'll never be what they need you to
So smile for me and leave the room

[Chorus]
Would you believe me if I told you I was happy?
Would you give a fuck or even ask me?
For some reason I can't seem
To find my happiness, happiness
'Cause I don't know what happy is, happy is
Maybe I should try
'Cause I forgot what my smile looks like

[Outro]
I forgot what my smile looks like
I forgot what my smile looks like