Happiness

I've been dragging out my love, over thirteen months right now
It's been a year and I believe in who I've found

I've been trying out this thing
They call happiness for a while
But I never truly cleared my cluttered mind

'Cause I knew that you'd get sick
Of all the stupid things I did
And how I never think far enough ahead
Because my drinking takes it's toll
On everybody around me, especially you
It's like a degenerate disease

'Cause it eats away at everything
But mostly love and the strength we build between us
And all the time it takes to build the trust right back up
Isn't worth a single drop or glass of anything
And I don't want anything, but you

I've got a liver full of toxins and a belly full of fire
And a tendency to lose myself for a while
'cause all the countless nights I spent cowering in bed
'cause I can't fight the voice that rings inside my head