Gin & Tonic

[Intro]
And she said would it be alright
If I got a Rum & Coke
I said baby for tonight let's pretend that we're not broke
Sick of living in tomorrow, should be living in the here
She whispered something in my ear and said

[Verse 1]
I don't see what the big deal is
Rum & cokes aren't that expensive
Plus I'm paying for the drinks
And we've been living codependent
We haven't left that couch in seven months
Made a date with divinity, but she wouldn't make me lunch
I was in Boise on a Tuesday when I really saw the future
And I realized at that moment I had always been a loser
Look what the world did?
Fuck it, look what I've done to me
All I do is drink and eat
Lay around and fucking sleep
But hey, that's okay
Not sure I'll see another day
It's like, that's alright
There's probably not another life
So I use that immaturity to cloud my insecurities
And walk around pretending I'm not afraid of uncertainty
My actions tell me I don't wanna be alive
But really I'm a little kid who's still afraid to die

[Chorus]
All I want is to be happy in this life I got
And Lord I try, but I don't truly know if I can stop
If I would die for them, then I should live for them
If I would die for them, then I should live

[Verse 2]
I used to stay up late at night
Thinking 'bout my songs
Now I fall asleep early from drinking all day long
I used to hate the feeling of a Friday night alone
But now I'm too embarrassed of the person I have grown
This song's the only person that I'll tell
'Cause there ain't no going back
Once you tell them you need some help
I spent every dollar that could be spent
Now I just wonder where the good me went
So be good to one another
Tell my girl I love her
Find a little peace in knowing that I didn't suffer
This world is full of beauty
This world is for the lovers
Remind of the feeling of a childhood summer
Remind me of the time before when all I did was wonder
The world was still a mystery to me to be discovered
Because I don't wanna die
Lord, I don't wanna die
No I don't wanna die

[Chorus]
All I want is to be happy in this life I got
And Lord I try, but I don't truly know if I can stop
If I would die for them, then I should live for them
If I would die for them, then I should live

[Bridge]
It goes one shot of Seagram's Gin
Two parts of Diet Tonic
Three's not a lucky charm
Four times I've tried to stop it
Fifth step's the hardest
'Cause six is a lie
When seven days a week you're feeling like you wanna die
There's eight people that I love
Nine times I've made amends
Ten years ago I never thought this'd be the way it ends
And eleven times for rest
And twelve for the month that I climbed into this mess

[Chorus]
All I want is to be happy in this life I got
And Lord I try, but I don't truly know if I can stop
If I would die for them, then I should live for them
If I would die for them, then I should live

[Outro]
I just want Kath to be happy
I want my father to be happy
I want my brothers to be happy
I want my friends to be happy
My generation to be happy
For Mello to be happy
Ill Poetic and Charlie to be happy
And maybe I can find some happiness